In my half way of 1st year of law degree

I doubted my choice

I doubted this path

Im under going a University of London programme

1. Its a Year-based exam 

which would be tougher than Sem-based

Cz we accumulate everything that we studied in the entire 12months n go to exam

If fails it take another year then re-sit it *if im not mistaken

2. The CLP

Min requirement of 2nd class honour to proceed CLP

N the rate of student passing is quite low *what i heard from friend

It freaks me out

=(

3. Examples

A friend told me "why do u study law? Its tough in UOL program n the salary is not even high"

Base on his own experience

His salary as an auditor (fresh graduate) is higher than his friend who also jz graduated from law

Another friends says

"My frn studied diploma in international business which took her around 2year max in australia

She start working in M'sia at the age of 24 n she get salary rm4k - well that's higher, like double of law fresh graduate T.T

So i start pondering wondering

Am i doing the right choice ?

Cz I'll be the latest amongst my frn to graduate

Im taking a lesser pay

In a harder course

n How do i survive my living on that amount of pay -.-

It's too late for any changes

So i know what i have to do is just to firm my mind

=(

Comparing My Life that I used to have in Kuantan n Now in Kl

Kuantan

Mon-Fri School day which i definitely wil skip 1/2days per week

Being late all the time to school n class

After school, take a nice warm shower in a very clean bathroom that my maid would clean it evryday

Take my lunch sometimes at home, sometimes with frn, sometimes with hubby boy

Have a nap in my air-conditioned room

Wake up by evening n get ready for hubby boy to pick me up =D

Sometimes will go for jogging or badminton with dear cjy

n also missing the swimming session with jern

Hang out in the mall

Watch most of the movies in the cinemas

Shop for cloth n skin care products

Exam times, go to the library with friends

Once in a while alcohol time in Barcelona, Drum Cafe, Valencia (Theater)

Have Lotsa fun in the dance studio

Lotsa Yc session with friends

I dont knw for others but that satisfy my life

okay, honestly sometimes do feel bored -.-

Kl

Weekday I have to wake up like 6am *What ?!*

7am send bro to MMU 

(Pity him cz sometimes his class start around10am/11am n he have to wait, by the time the class started he might collapse feeling too sleepy)

After that I'll travel around an hour plus to reach my college

From Mmu cyberjaya To Brickfields Kl

N i speed on 100-110 after exiting Putrajaya Tol

until the Smart Tunnel, very jamming part =(

After class usually evening i'll travel back to Mmu to pick bro up

B4 i forgot, BAC should provide parking for students !!!

The parking there cost like rm1 per hour (member rate! to enter member that cost me rm80 to burn -.-)

or else like rm2 1st hour subsequent hour rm1.50 -.-

After picking bro, there goes jam again since its peak hour !

Go take away our dinner

Home sitting in front of Tv n had our dinner

Idling around, do some random stuff, walk around -.- watch movie or whatever

until i feel sleepy.

Have a chat with boyfie n there goes bed

Weekends.

Hell.

Idling around -.-

Sometimes work, that make me feels better cz i get friends in work n earn a lot xD

Sometimes, flip my books but ntg goes in

Sometimes, doing assignment very seriously *huhu*

Sometimes, hang out with friend which usually not my preference

Dont really like to hang out with friends here, not like they are my college frn, they frm ktn, some i jz got to knw here. Um, they weird -.-

Hang out with babe Val makes me feel most comfy ^^

That's It

...

I see most of the long-term couple relationship

Girls, are the one who being abandoned

When a relation getting mature

Girls will started to love their man more, started to rely on them n then goes on to believe in this fairy tail created by both of them, believe in marriage, believe in happy ever after

Whereas for Guys

*no idea what's on their mind* =S

Hope my relation with my Hubby boy would never be another long-term couple breaking up

Cz that would HURT me A LOT

In my past teenage

A break up is a very 'sap sap sui' matter ~

Nowadays

Even a close to break up, my tears would flood the whole apartment =D

Don't Try Me ><"

R.L

A seriously CUTE Guy

Well he might not like the way i describe him

But girls know what that means when we describe a guy as ''cute'' *shy*

Met him only once n i think that will be the 1st n last day we met

A Guy with huge social ~

Pretty Girls surrounds him ~

Interesting Life he Have ~

OKAY HONESTLY =X

I Hope Can b Closer to Him =X

Ahem !

It's not that couple close *Okayyy I have my hubby boy n he's my only one xD

But but....

I just need a LIFE here =(

A LIFE !!!

DESPERATE For a LIFE !!! -.-

N not the routine of - class - home - eat - sleep - online - wake up - class - home ... ... ...

T.T

Oh God, r u punishing me for having a Life before n now taking It away from me

Zzz ... Zzz ...

Wish to Attend

but but but ... ...

boyfie coming to kl n i should i shall meet him up =/

So i Gave Up on this T.T

Sighs *.*

Have u ever compare you partner (BF/GF) with another couple ?

Sometimes.

We saw how others treated their love n we feel touched on how good he could treat her

Indirectly It is been compared to ur love one

"How could a Guy do so much for Her n mine just not Doing that much for me"

"Dont he love me?"

"Maybe i could get some1 that treat me better too as i deserve a better one"

Today i Get these question frm a Frn

It makes me think of me n my hubby boy

I knw my hubby boy is not a guy who really know how to touches a Girl's heart

Yet is not so good on sweet talk

In addition not so good in cheering up Girls

Neither in Handling Girls Emotion

It makes me doubted that

whether is this really his personality or he haven't met a Girl that could change him to doing all sort of romantic stuff

But I convinced myself that

Y do i even bother so much

when we r tied with love

Maybe it's not the time yet or he could really touches my heart whr no1 else could do

To Be very Honest that i Dont like Distance relationship

I have 0 confidence on distance love

n It's really hard for me living alone out here

Sometimes i wish to have some1 that will settling out things for me no matter wat happen n be by my side whnever i needed him

It definitely won't be my hubby boy since distance can't work this out

But i Still Love Him as much as i Was

i Still Care Him as much as i Used to

i Still Want Him as much as He Wanted Me

N that bring us together for 2 yrs n 7 month

Him

My babe

My precious

My everything

It is terrifying to feel that u r getting apart from me, getting away from me

Afraid that we doesn't suit each other anymore

When i saw u gaming, talking, smoking, laughing with others

Seriously

I don't know how to blend in

How many common topic do we shares

Different path that we having will it separate our heart as well ?

I want you.

But i dont really know how

Dont know what can i do to always have you here with me

I know these are the questions i cant ask

but

Questions remain unanswered...

What's Life Like in KL-The City

Moved to Puchong in the month of September

which locates around 20km from my college

n Its quite jamming on the peak hour

Have to wake up at least 2 hour b4 class start

GPS guided me using highway which pass through 3 tols which cost rm1.60 each

Luckily Valerie n Zenz show me another way with no tol, but with traffics ><

Its HARD living alone in KL

Have to be really independent, dont know where to get help when in trouble

Had spent rm350 for a persona side skirting, long story ='(

Got some problems with my starter n auto lock

Really headache when get to VEHICLE problems

Apartment located in the 4th floor

Spent 2 days time

to move all my stuff to the house

Very heavy Very tiring

Heavy Class Started

Wouldn't dare to miss a class

but -.-

i've skipped it again like usual

Having problems on my study loan T.T

Don't really get friends here

Doesn't know how to blend in well

Somtimes I feel like its really tired socializing

I dont like life here

Miss my Friends, but now all of them had left apart from me

Miss my boy

Hope i could spend all my time with him

Since he is my most precious one

Wish i Could Get Someone here by my side

Helping

n

Caring